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zatchmo83
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Name: Zach
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Arlington
Birthday: 8/26/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: Books, movies, listening to people's problems and offering only comfort (no advice, I suck at advice), other things ADD makes me forget
Expertise: Movies, listening to people and their problems without giving much advice (I can only provide comfort. If you want advice, look elsewhere. If you want a hug, to be held, etc. I'm there for ya). Forgetting important and non-important dates, things, etc.
Occupation: Package Handler/TUG driver
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  zatchmo1983
MSN: zatchmo83@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  zatchmo1983
Member Since:
10/10/2005
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| Ahoy hoy, xanga-phytes! Yep, I just came up with that. Isn't that neat-o?! Anywho, I just thought I'd drop by here for probably the last time ever. I dunno, I may change my mind in the next 5 minutes as my mind is wont to do. Anywho, a lot has happened in the last couple of years. I fell in love (which you all know) and then I got married. Then, 5 months later, I return to my parents house alone, broken-hearted, and ashamed. I've now been divorced for almost 2 months. Yep, I'm 24 and divorced. You can read all about the aftermath of the downfall of my marriage on my myspace blog at:
www.myspace.com/zatchmo83
If you don't have a myspace, GET ONE!!! You guys were the first online friends I had, so I want you guys around. I'm sorry I've neglected you for so long. I blame my own stupidity and insensitivity for that. Anywho, go there, and add me, bitches!!
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| I'm in debt with Wells Fargo. Those bastards..... Got into a car accident today. 3 cars including mine. Ali was in the passenger seat. Fortunately, it wasn't my fault. But the car's got some pretty severe damage to it. We were in my little Saturn, sandwiched between a Ford F-150 and a Ford F-350. Fortunately, no one was an asshole to anyone, and Ali took control of the situation, because I was scared shitless, and she's had more than her share of accidents. One guy didn't speak English, and the other just wanted to get the hell out of there. To be fair, we all wanted to just leave. Anywho, I'm taking the day off tomorrow to nurse my aches and pains. Work's going all right. I pissed off my full-time sup today because I told the truth. More on that later.... I'm tired and achy and I need a massage badly, as does Ali. I'm so thankful she's okay, and that everyone else is okay. Life's good. | | |
| Last night I shut down. I'm pretty sure I scared Ali. I wouldn't respond to anything she said or did, not that I could even if I tried my hardest. When I shut down, I SHUT DOWN. I cried for a couple of hours. Things have gone wrong, and all I could do was cry. So cry I did. I've got a couple job leads now.
And now for something completely different.....
I love Ali. Sometimes I want to tear my eyes out. It's easy to say, "Just start over!" And it's harder to face the reality: Ali, with all her depression and frustration, is still the woman I dream about in sleep and awake, the woman I fantasize about constantly, she makes me laugh so much that my cheeks hurt and my throat is often sore as a result, her embrace is home, her embrace is security to me, I want to take care of her and I want her to take care of me, I want to please her and her to please me. I know she's worth the trouble, even if everyone else thinks she's not. It's just harder than I want it to be, which is the way it always is, isn't it? Yeah. Sometimes, I wish for a simpler life.... then I remember how unhappy I was with a simpler life and the struggles all seem worth it. It's just hard.... very, very, very hard. | | |
| Okay, so I have NO money. Okay, so maybe I have about $10 to my name. But that's being generous. Rent's due in a week and.... yeah. I'm fucked. Alison's living with me right now, because her mom basically threw her out on her ass about 2 weeks ago. Alison has even less financial means than I do, so, eventhough she wants to pay some of the rent, she can't. She can barely afford her co-pays, and that's with her mother helping her. Mom has offered to take over my school loan payments, and I'm actually considering letting her. But I really don't want her to, because my parents are already doing SOOOO much for me. I need the help, but I feel like shit for needing help. God, I need more money!!!!!!!!! Someone help me PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | | |
| So, I've decided that spending the rest of my life working my ass off at UPS is about as appealing as pulling testicle hairs one by one from myself. Also, looking for a second job so I can cover my end of things once I get married was just too overwhelming and just as unappealing as staying at UPS. So, I've been looking though the employment classifieds and I found a tech training school for X-ray Techs. I've always thought x-rays were cool, and have been a little sad that I've not had too many of them (I've NEVER broken a bone!), so now I'll be trained to take them!!!! Yeah BOY!!!!! Add to that, my dad (who is a medical director for a occupational health center) says that, to his knowledge, X-ray Techs make $16 an hour minimum. Granted, that's not a lot of money in the grand scheme of things, but it's $4 an hour more than my sister's college-educated ass makes, so I'm happy. And, hell, it beats hefting fucking packages all damn day! SO back to school I go! It's not real school, like taking history and english and suchlike, so yeah. This may not be my career for life n all, but it would be quite an experience. As long as I make enough to live happy and do what I want, I'm going to do whatever. | | |
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